I haven't posted here in so fucking long. I am not even sure I feel comfortable posting here again, but what the hell I will give it a shot.

So I have gone to two weddings this month. One for my friend Shayla on Sept. 7th and one for Ryan's friend Rick on Sept. 27th. Everyone is getting married and I feel like life is passing by too quickly. I was looking at Alecia's wedding and honeymoon photos last night and I began to feel nostalgic. I remembered highschool and I remembered how she met Andrew, he now husband. I was there through all of Alecia's bad times in highschool and I miss not knowing her anymore. Same with some other people, but she is one I haven't talked to since graduation. I feel like everyone is growing up so fast, including me who is engaged, and part of me wishes I could keep Ryan with me but go back to highschool to reconnect with the people I love. I miss not knowing how my friends are and how there lives are going.

I guess that is it. I just wish time would slow down sometimes.

So...I promised myself I would write in here about how Ryan and I met. So here goes nothing...

We meet online at a dating website called "TRUE.com" (I know...a dating website...a litle pathetic but I was freaking out because I was going to turn 20 okay! A mini meltdown was on the way if I didn't do something!) So anyway...I had been on the site for a week and I really hadn't met too many guys, then on Wednesday Feb. 21st I get this message from Ryan saying how much he likes theatre. So we exchanged IM's and we got to talking and I told him I had never been on a date/had a BF/been kissed so on Sunday Feb. 25th he took me to dinner at Maggiano's Italian Resturant and to the movie "Music and Lyrics". We were getting along great and during the movie he put the arm rest up and held my hand (it was so adorable!) after the movie he took me back to my dorm and Kissed my had goodnight.

On Monday he called me and left a message on my phone singing Pippin's song from LOTR 3 which I told him I loved.

On Tuesday Feb. 27th, (our second date) he came over and we watched movies from 4pm - 9:30pm (Both Kill Bill's since I had never seen them, and Little Miss Sunshine since he never saw that) Then at 9:30 we went to my friends 21st b-day party and he got to meet all my BU friends (who loved him by the way!) We left the party at 11:15 and came back to my room to watch Futurama. At 12:45 or so, into the third episode, he kept staring at me lik ehe wanted to kiss me, but didn't so I kissed him. Then he looked at me and said "That was your first kiss huh? Well lets make it longer." and he kissed my again. So then he went home...

On Wednesday at Midnight (The start of my Birthday he called to sing to me.) Then he called again at 8:30am (the time I was born) and asked to be my boyfriend!

So Saturday March 3rd, he came to see my show I was working on, it was closing night, and as I was cleaning the stage at intermission he threw a rose at me. We we got back to my room there was a vase of 11 more roses sitting on my micro-fridge. He spent the night Saturday and we watched The Departed ...which was just blah, then we fell asleep on my bed spooning. In the morning we played connect four on his phone for kisses and we went to lunch and a movie with my aunts. We saw Zodiac which was really good! Then we cam back to my dorm, attempted to watch Matrix (cause I had never seen it) but the sound quality was bad, so we started making out instead.

He's comming by tonight and we are going out to dinner at this asian resturant called Brown Sugar, and then we are going to watch Bad Boys 2. Maybe make out as well lol.

So far that is the story of me and my boyfriend Ryan.

Damn...I never post in here anymore. Well I am very busy. No one reads live journal anyway. I just wanted to say I am good, school is good, and my dad is flying into Boston on Wed. to spend Thanksgiving out here with me and my aunts. That is all I guess.

My journal just looked sad and un used.

So yesterday I finished reading Sean Astin's book "There and back again: An actor's tale." I read i tina day and a half. I was so enthralled by the book. Anyone who still loks at live journal...you should read it when you get a chance. It talks a lot about Hollywood and the business, which does intrigue me, and about the whole Lord of the Rings Experience. While reading it Sean admnitts how self centered he is, and it made me realize all actors, actually everyone is that way. I don't know why people say th ehate people who are self centered when we all are really. Any way...it was good. I move into my dorm tomorrow (friday) and there is a party saturday, a show sunday, and school starts tues. Yeah for me.

I am quite nervous. My wisdom tooth on the bottom left side is comming in...and stupid me went to webmd to look up info on wisdom teeth. I learned a lot but it made me really nervous. When time comes to pull it out, I am gonna freak. I am so gonna need to be knocked out for the whole thing. When I was little I had to have almost all of my baby teeth pulled out because my mouth was too small for all my teeth, and everytime I went in to get one pulled, I cried and freaked out. And wisdom teeth are worse apparently, and there are so many more complications that arrise from them and the procedure. GOD DAMMIT! I should never go to webmd.

12 days till August 21 st (The two year anniversary of my mother's death.) It is also my last day of work...I wonder how I am going to handle it. I seem to be okay so far...12 days and counting.

so, I haven't posted in so long. What's new with me...lets see...I may only be going to Boston University for the first semester because Financial Aid diddn't give me enough money. We can only pay for one semester. I went to the docotrs on tues. and got a Pap smear for the first time. FUCKING HURT! lol. I love all this rain! I just want to run out and play in it! OH! and tuesday night we had a huge storm and I swear it was like a hurricane. I lost power for a half hour and people houses near mine had trees fall through their walls. Oh...and I am working 40 hours a week at Walgreens. I love it but I will only be there for another month or so, so come visit me. It's the Walgreens on McDowell and Hayden. That is all I guess. TTFN

I had a pretty nice day yesterday and I was worried that it would suck. Dan Pringle came over at 12:15 and we went to see "RV", then we came back and had a late lunch. Then I had to take down design exibit from 6pm - 10pm, and after that was over, Mike and I went to Angora Cafe and surprisingly Dan, Michelle, Meg, Jaime, and Ethan walked in as well, so we all sat together and ate till 12am then Ethan, Mike and I met Travis at late night and hung out there till 1:30am. It was a fun day, a nice cinco de mayo.

So...I had design exibit this morning from 9am - 11am. I was sort of boring. We just stand near our table displaying our work for the year, and the professors walk by and talk to us. Then I studied and took a nap. Now I am getting ready to for my Art History Final which is today from 2pm - 4pm. After the final I will be done with classes! Yeah!!All that will be left will be take down of Design Exbit Friday night! Woot woot! And friday during the day I am going to have lunch and go to the movies with Dan Pringle! We're gonna see Ice Age 2: the Meltdown. I am so excited to see that movie. Anyway...that is all I wanted to say. I had a good freshamn year of college, but it is time to go back to AZ. I come back on May 15th just so whoever reads this knows. and I will stay in AZ till August 23rd. So I hope to see all my az friends soon!!
Love ya!